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Kathryn Anna Marshall's avatar

This resonates so very much. I am not sure where I am in terms of ASD - much of what you say sounds familiar. I wonder if perhaps I am so used to masking I mask from myself? The ME/CFS is so real - but by and large I find the joy of live music is always worth the agony of losing a week. I used to berate myself but the kind of measured half life I tried to live was deeply miserable.

I hope your body's response isn't too harsh, and that the joy of seeing them carries you through.

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Katie Woods's avatar

This is very honest. Thanks for sharing this. People need to see, hear, feel (and hopefully begin to understand) through your experiences, how it is to try to function in this society with ASD. It made me sad that you learned to hide your stimming to be more socially accepted. This is what masking is, suppression of self. It makes me think of how much we presume about others when all it would take sometimes to help someone feel safe and seen is a simple question: Is that volume ok for you? Are you ok with this music on? Anyway, it’s late. I’m up wrestling Calpol into teething toddler. I would like to write more but I’m too tired…

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